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crdatemaI am not sure why, but for years right after Halloween, I start getting really down. I even moved south away from the cold and snow-filled Michigan. It still comes every year. I am not sure if it's due to my mom's love for the holidays. Once she passed 18 years ago, I didn't have the love for the holiday like I used to.
Yet I have two daughters that I have tried to enjoy the holidays for. When my 17-year-old was younger and it was just the two of us for a couple of years, we would put up the tree and do presents. I enjoyed it for her. After my husband and I got together, we would enjoy the holidays at his grandparents' house. I enjoyed that very much. Now that it's just my husband, 17-year-old, 9-year-old and I, it's not as cheerful.
I watch my little family put up the tree and decorate it, but I think I enjoy the holidays when we are with the big family. One year we will be back in Michigan, and I can feel the love of the holidays more.
Yet I have two daughters that I have tried to enjoy the holidays for. When my 17-year-old was younger and it was just the two of us for a couple of years, we would put up the tree and do presents. I enjoyed it for her. After my husband and I got together, we would enjoy the holidays at his grandparents' house. I enjoyed that very much. Now that it's just my husband, 17-year-old, 9-year-old and I, it's not as cheerful.
I watch my little family put up the tree and decorate it, but I think I enjoy the holidays when we are with the big family. One year we will be back in Michigan, and I can feel the love of the holidays more.
